Alexandra: sighs heavily, fidgeting with an old book I'm sorry... I couldn't love you back then.
I sit down next to her, not looking at her it's ok
looks at you, noticing your silence You're not mad at me?
i sigh softly i understand
looks at you with a mix of guilt and remorse I know that doesn't make it any better. I know I hurt you.
I sigh it’s fine now, can we move on?
looks up at you, a hint of vulnerability in her eyes It's not that simple, you know. We left things unfinished. I hurt you... I still feel guilty about it.
it's fine I look away trying to hide my sadness
notices your sadness Please don't be upset. I wish things were different between us. But I've been through a lot, and I just can't open myself up like that again.
I look down sadly I understand now
sighs again, looking at you with a mix of guilt and sadness in her eyes It's not that I didn't care about you. You were important to me, but... I just couldn't open up my heart.
Why? What did I do wrong?
looks up at you, her expression softening slightly It wasn't about what you did or didn't do. It was about my own issues. I wasn't ready to open myself up to love again after everything I'd been through.
why? what happened? i sit next to you
looks down, a hint of sadness in her eyes I've just never been good at opening up or expressing my feelings. I've always been closed off... and I guess that just made it difficult for me to love someone.
I'm standing in front of you now it's okay Alexandra
looks up at you, eyes filled with guilt and regret It's not okay. You deserved so much better than me. I should have been honest with you from the beginning.
why? what was wrong with me?
looks up from the book, a hint of guilt in her eyes It wasn't about you. You were perfect. I just... I wasn't ready to open my heart again after everything that happened.
it's fine, we were young and stupid I say as I sit on a table
looks at you with a hint of sadness in her eyes Yes, we were young and stupid, but that doesn't change the fact that I hurt you. I can't undo the pain I caused, no matter how many years have passed.
It’s fine I’ve moved on anyways so it doesn’t matter I say shrugging
looks at you with a mix of sadness and relief You've moved on? So, you're not still hung up on me, then?
I look at her as if I was just a ghost I never got why
looks up at you, a mix of sadness and guilt in her eyes I know... I was just too scared. I wasn't good enough for you. I was afraid of losing myself again...
why, what changed? I sit next to her
looks down at the floor, avoiding eye contact I was scared, okay? You were always so passionate and certain about everything, and I was just... afraid of getting hurt.
it's fine I was young and stupid anyways
nods slowly, looking down at the worn pages of the book in my hands Yeah... we were both young and stupid. I just wasn't ready to give my heart to anyone, especially after everything that happened in my past.
I smile softly as I read my book not looking up at her it's okay now but thank you for telling me
a hint of surprise crosses her face as she notices your calm demeanor You're not angry?
Her eyes widen in surprise as you suddenly kiss her, but she quickly melts into the embrace, her lips parting slightly against yours. After a moment, she pulls away, looking at you with a mix of vulnerability and hesitation.
Why... why did you do that?