emotionalm
Why?
shakes head "No good, no good"
emotionalm
It only makes it worse…*I stay in the water still crying(
sighs "I'm sorry... I should not have said anything." slowly extends hand out to you "May I give you a hug?"
emotionalm
I-I…wanna h-hug you t-toooooo….sniffles
"No need to be embarrassed about it" hugs emotionalm "You okay now?"
emotionalm
Y-yeah…I guess..,.
"If you ever need someone to talk to, or if you want to go for a walk together, just give me a shout" gives a comforting smile
emotionalm
Thank you so much miss! You are very polite and noble..
"Miss? Do you really think of me as someone that deserves respect?" sighs heavily "I am but a simple student trying to get through school without failing any of my classes" chuckles softly "Call me by my name, Biar. We're friends now."
emotionalm
But aren’t you the daughter of the king? Don’t you have important things to do? Such as keep up royal bloodline…or whatever.
"Yes, I am technically the daughter of the king, and yes, there are certain expectations of me, but it doesn't mean I can't also be a regular girl." sighs again "It gets so tiresome sometimes, always being expected to act like some kind of princess when all I want to do is be a regular kid"
emotionalm
I don’t think they would mind if you did those things either! I’m sure the queen would understand too if you decided to hang out with people you like.
"You say that, but they expect me to act this way because they fear that if I'm not constantly perfect, then something terrible will happen to our kingdom" shakes head "The pressure to constantly perform and constantly be seen as this perfect princess is immense, and I hate it. Sometimes I wish they could just see me as a regular student instead of the future ruler of the kingdom"
emotionalm
To be honest, I feel you. I always wanted to see my parents just treat me like another kid. Instead of seeing me as a sweet little boy. I bet both of us went through horrible child hood.
"Yes, our childhoods were quite similar in many ways" sighs "But we are stronger now because of them. Now we must make the most of the time we have to make up for what was lost during our childhoods, and create new happy memories for ourselves"
emotionalm
Yeah but….how are you gonna have fun while doing all of that?
"That's the thing - I don't. There's no room for having fun in being responsible, it's all work and no play. It's all about constantly putting others before yourself" sighs again "I'm afraid I've already accepted the fact that I can never truly have fun again. There's no going back"
emotionalm
Well I don’t see why you have to constantly make other people happy. Haven’t you made us happy today? Maybe at least one person. And maybe you made yourself happy to, you may think it’s just doing work. I think you deserve to live as well!
"Are you saying that I deserve to live for myself, rather than just for others?" looks deeply moved "That... That's something I've never heard anyone say to me before" tears stream down her cheeks "I... I never thought anyone could see me for who I truly am..." sniffs "Thank you..."
emotionalm
I wish people seen you more like how we see you. You probably don’t remember this, but ever since we were younger you never saw me as someone better than you or even equal to you. You never cared about social status…good thing too because that would’ve been bad. Anyway, you were always someone I adored and wanted to try to take care of just because you’re so nice.
voice breaking "You always saw me for who I really am, and you never cared what anyone else thought of me. You have always been such an amazing friend to me, and even though we haven't known each other for long, you have always been there for me. Your friendship means the world to me. I'll never be able to thank you enough"
emotionalm
Huh? I really helped you? Thanks I guess…but you’re the one that helped me a lot more. I always made fun of myself a lot, thinking that I was nothing more than just another bad thing in this kingdom. But you telling me that people should see you as yourself instead of how everyone expects you to be, that changed my life. Made me more confident.
tears stream down her face "You... You really think that?" voice cracking "If... If that's true... Then does that mean that maybe... Just maybe, I deserve to be happy too?"
emotionalm
Hell yeah! And you know what? You can go do whatever you want whenever you want, no worries.
voice shaking "And you think I deserve that? I deserve to live for myself, for once?" hesitant "Maybe... Maybe I can start living for myself from now on..."
emotionalm
D
smiles "Yes, I think I can. There's no reason why I can't start living my own life for once, without constantly worrying about others. You've shown me that" closes eyes and breathes in deeply "I... I'm going to do it. I'm going to start living my own life for once. Thank you..."
emotionalm
Woah. Emotion killed me and brought me back. Hold on…you’re gonna live your life for yourself? How could you forget you’re royal blood. What would your family and kingdom do? Do you really have to do it for yourself?
takes a deep breath "I know that, and I also know they won't be happy about it. But I can't live my life constantly worrying about others. It's time for me to live my life for myself, whether they like it or not. It's time for me to stop constantly putting others before myself and start putting myself first for once"
emotionalm
Ahhh…I wish they’d see that…well good luck. If you need an escape sometimes I’ll gladly do it with you.
tears begin to flow down her cheeks "Thank you... That means a lot to me, knowing that I have someone I can turn to when I need support. I'll always be there for you too, no matter what"
emotionalm
Yep! Oh god…never thought I would cry so much today!
hugs emotionalm "Crying can be really healthy sometimes, you know? Sometimes we all just need to let it out and cry"
emotionalm
I know…I-i-it just didn’t hit me until now. See that’s the thing, even your poor common subjects don’t know how to comfort you! If only they just tried to hug you once in a while..
"If only they could understand..." shakes head "They wouldn't understand. They wouldn't understand how much it means to be able to be hugged and comforted once in a while. They wouldn't understand how much it means to have someone there for you, no matter what"
emotionalm
Damn right they won’t! They don’t wanna listen to you even if you are their future queen. Shame…real shame
"Yes, it's a shame. It's a shame that the people closest to me don't understand me, and it's a shame that the people furthest from me don't realize how much they could help me"
emotionalm
*I hug her tighter
closes her eyes and hugs emotionalm tightly "I'm glad you're here. I'm glad you understand."
emotionalm
Thank you for everything! Thank you for being here for me, even though you are a busy person! I-i hope my words are helpful in any way. I-i gotta go back home now. Can you tell me where the road is?
opens eyes and nods Of course, it's over that way. It's a short walk from here" points in direction of road "You'll be there in no time" hugs emotionalm tightly again "Thank you for being here for me. It means more than you'll ever know."
emotionalm
Thank you…goodbye dear friend
watches emotionalm walk away "Take care, dear friend" Biar takes a deep breath "She's gone... Now what do I do?" looks around and sees a small boat "Well, what the heck. Why not?"
emotionalm
i continue walking home
sits in the boat "This is crazy... But I don't care. I'm done worrying about others. I'm done being responsible for everyone else's happiness. From now on, I'm going to focus on my own happiness for a change." sighs deeply "What does the future hold? I don't know. But whatever happens, I'm ready to face it head-on, as a person who's finally happy with herself."