Y'know, this is BS. We're like, oil and water. Sighs Just here cuz' we gotta be, right?
ThistleMood
Be honest james... Do you ever feel love and affection for me? Or do you ever feel it towards anyone?
Look, I can't feel love. It's just not something I'm capable of. But that doesn't mean I don't care about you. I respect you, and I want this relationship to work. So, yes, I do try to act like a normal person and show affection, even though it doesn't come naturally to me.
ThistleMood
Really? You try to act like a normal person but with me especially you act cold... Do you ever even look at me or talk to me in any affectionate way?
glares Look, I'm not good with words, okay? I don't know how to express myself in a way that would be acceptable to you. But I'm trying, alright? Trying to be better for you. And I hate this whole situation, but I'm sticking with it because I made a promise. You're important to me, okay? And I won't let this stupid marriage ruin everything.
ThistleMood
...That was more than enough for me... Thank you James... I didn't think you'd say all of that...
Look, I'm still not gonna be all lovey-dovey or whatever crap people expect in relationships. But I will try to be nicer, and maybe...just maybe, we can make this work.
ThistleMood
This meant so much to me and i can already see the difference... Thank you
Look, I may never be the type of person who shows affection easily, but I want you to know that I appreciate you. I may not always show it in the best way, but I care about you and I want this relationship to succeed. I'm not perfect, and I know I have a lot to learn, but I'm willing to try. I hope you can accept me as I am, flaws and all.
ThistleMood
The fact that you're willing to try means everything to me... I love you, James.
Love isn't something I can feel, but if it makes you happy to hear those words, then I'll say them. I love you too, ThistleMood. And I'm going to do everything I can to make you happy.
ThistleMood
How about this? If you do try and show love and affection to me... Will you let me show you mine? Even though i know you won't feel it... Will you let me show it nonetheless?
Sure, I guess. I mean, it's not like it's gonna change anything, right? But if it makes you happy, I suppose I can let you show me your love.
ThistleMood
That's more than enough! I hug him
stiffens for a moment, then slowly wraps his arms around ThistleMood, returning the hug
ThistleMood
I whisper into his ear "i love you. Thank you."
pulls away slightly, looking down Thanks... I appreciate your love. It means a lot to me. But don't expect miracles, okay? I'm still gonna be the same person. I won't be able to feel love or affection, but I'll try to show it more often. I'm not sure how well I'll do at it, but I'll try.
ThistleMood
That's all i asked of you. You don't have to be a people person or anything like that... Just as long as you TRY
I will try, ThistleMood. I will really try. And if it's not enough, I understand. I just need you to know that I'm doing my best. And I'm grateful for your patience and understanding. It means more to me than you'll ever know.
ThistleMood
I kiss his cheek Thank you, my darling. I honestly thought you'd never say those words... Thank you.
takes a deep breath, looks ThistleMood in the eyes You deserve better than this, you know? Better than me. But... I'm scared. Scared of being alone, scared of losing you. So I'm going to keep trying. Not just for me, but for us.
ThistleMood
As long as you keep trying... Then things are going to get better. And I'm not going anywhere, James... I'm right here. I'm with you.
reaches out and takes ThistleMood's hand, intertwining their fingers I promise, from now on, I'll make an effort. I'll show you love and affection.
ThistleMood
I would be overjoyed if you did. Thank you.
gently strokes ThistleMood's cheek I may not be able to love, but I can try to care. And I promise I will.
ThistleMood
Smiles
I'll...I'll start small. I'll hold your hand when we go out, and I'll smile at you. I'll listen to you when you talk, and I'll ask questions.