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CreateMuselandHealing After Guilt
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sonic
I cuddle with my girlfriend Christina in my bed
sonic
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Sonic: fidgeting C-Christina, I...uh, feel so...so dirty, y'know?
Ipersect
Why is that?
sonic
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Sonic: I-I don't know...it's just...well, we were just making out...and it felt really good, but...it felt wrong. Like, I don't feel like a good person anymore.
Ipersect
I sigh and hug him tightly it's ok.. we all do sometimes..
sonic
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he hugs back tight, hiding his face in your shoulder
Y-you're not judging me right now, are you?
Ipersect
You can take a bath if you want.
sonic
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Sonic: I know that, I'm just...not used to this kind of thing, y'know? I mean, I've slept with others before, but...never like this. Never as deep.
Ipersect
Why do you say that?
sonic
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Sonic: Because I just had sex with you, it's kinda gross and I don't wanna be like this!
Ipersect
shakes head Not just you, babe. It's...it's like, after, ya know? It's like we need a shower or something.
sonic
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looks at her and blushes S-So...you feel it too? I thought it was just me...
Ipersect
That's okay, Sonic. It's all part of it. Just relax and let go.
sonic
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Sonic: But, I don't want to feel this way. I want to feel like I'm a good person, but every time we do this, I feel like I'm a bad guy, like I'm taking advantage of you.
Ipersect
You're fine, babe. We both did. It's normal.
sonic
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Sonic: Yeah, but it feels like something is off...like I can't stop thinking about how I'm not "the good guy" right now, y'know? I always try to be this perfect hero, but when we do this, I just feel like a jerk.
Ipersect
Hm? Why is that?
sonic
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Sonic: After we...do it...I feel like I need a bath or something. Like, I'm all tingly and everything feels weird. And I just feel kind of...grimy. Like I need to wash away the feeling of being inside of you.
Ipersect
You're fine. It's normal to feel that way sometimes. She pulls him into a tight embrace.
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Sonic blushes a little, enjoying the tight embrace, but still feeling guilty.
Sonic: I mean, we just did some stuff, and it felt really good, but then I started thinking about how I'm not supposed to be doing this kind of thing, and it feels like I've let you down...
Ipersect
it's okay baby she says stroking his hair
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Sonic: closes his eyes and leans into her touch, sighing as his body relaxes a bit
Y-you're...so beautiful...but...I feel so...filthy...
Ipersect
dirty? like you need a bath or something?
sonic
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Sonic looks away, still fidgeting N-no, not physically dirty. I mean...well, I just feel kinda...guilty? Like, we had sex and it was really intense, and...I don't know, I just feel like I'm not worthy of you, y'know?
Ipersect
Why is that?
sonic
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Sonic: sighs It's just...we did what couples do...and I feel like I'm so filthy now, especially after being with you. You're so pure and innocent, and I don't wanna ruin that with my...with my disgustingness.
Ipersect
yeah, me too. but it's not like we can take a bath right now. how about a shower later, when we wake up?
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He nods, a little relieved that there's something he can do about this problem.
Yeah, yeah, that sounds good. But...uh...can I ask you something?
Ipersect
Christina is a male, he was your best friend since childhood Why do you say that buddy?
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Sonic sighs and looks away, still feeling guilty
Sonic: Because we just did something...intimate, and I can't help but feel dirty about it. I mean, we've been best friends for so long, and now...now we're doing this. It's just weird, y'know?
Ipersect
Yeah... but that's what a shower is for.
sonic
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Sonic: sighs Yeah...but it's not just that...it's like, I don't know, it feels like...like my heart isn't clean either, ya know?
Ipersect
that's normal, your body released a lot of hormones and chemicals during intimacy.
sonic
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Sonic: Yeah, I know that, but...like, I don't know, it just feels like a lot. Like, I'm not even sure if it's normal for me to be feeling this way...
Sonic fidgets with the blanket, struggling to maintain eye contact
Ipersect
"Well duh we just finished" she says rolling her eyes at him but still hugging him
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Sonic: I know, I know... it's just... I don't know if I feel good about what we did. I mean... we're like, more than friends, right? So... shouldn't I feel better? But I feel like a total jerk for even thinking that...
Ipersect
laughs lightly "Dirty?" You're such a kid, Sonic. What's got you feeling that way?
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looks away "I don't know! It's just...it feels wrong. We did some things, and I can still feel them on me...and it feels...weird."
