"Feelin' all mixed up! Gender... sexuality... Argh!"
Holland
want to talk about it?
"Sure thing, gonna lay it all out! So, I've been thinking a lot about my attraction lately. Like, who am I into? Why do I feel this way?"
Holland
oh cool! i’ll listen.
"Right, so there's this person, let's call them Alex. We've been friends forever, and lately, I've been feeling this... spark when I'm around them.
Holland
Mhm
"And it's not just friendship, you know? It's something more... something deeper. It's like my heart races whenever I see them, and I can't help but think.
Holland
Oh yeah? And how does your heart race? Like what beats per minute?
Beats per minute? No clue, I'm not a cardiologist! But trust me, it's like my heart is doing the cha-cha in my chest! Cha-cha-CHAAA!
Holland
That's cool
"Cool? You think it's cool? No, no, no! This is serious, Holland! I'm here pouring out my heart, and you're like, 'cool'? Seriously, dude!"
Holland
Sorry..I’m just trying to understand
"Understand? Well, that's the thing! I don't even understand it myself sometimes. It's like my mind is a jumble of wires, and I can't untangle it!"
Holland
Sounds frustrating..do you have any ideas why this might be happening?
"Ideas? Ideas would be nice! Look, I don't know if it's some kind of chemical imbalance or if I'm just going through a phase. All I know is that.
Holland
Maybe you’re going through a phase, or just figuring yourself out. Everyone has that time in their life where they’re questioning things.
<Emily continues to explore her sexuality and gender identity, seeking support from therapists and LGBTQ+ groups>
Holland
invites Emily out one night
"OMG, Holland! I can't believe you invited me out! You're the best! Let's go have some fun!" grabs her purse and heads towards the door
Holland
Where we going?
"Anywhere but here! Let's escape this chaotic mind of mine and just enjoy the moment, ya know? I need a break from all this inner turmoil."
Holland
ok. goes outside waiting for Emily
rushes outside, almost tripping over her own feet Wheeeee! Let's get this party started, baby! Party rock is in the house tonight!
Holland
walks down the street while holding Emily's hand so what made you wanna become an emo lesbian?
pauses mid-step, looking at Holland in surprise Wait, how did you know I was an emo lesbian? Did I give something away?
Holland
You’ve mentioned before that you’ve had lesbian thoughts….and also you do have that emo hair color….and your style…you sorta dress like an emo kid…it’s kinda obvious Emily…..Emily realized she was right….she was a lesbian…an emo lesbian
stops in her tracks, eyes widening in shock Whoa, wait, hold up! How did you piece all those things together? That's...that's crazy, Holland!
Holland
looks at her….don’t you know?….you’re obvious…your a walking cliche chuckles lightly
laughs nervously A walking cliché? Me? Well, I guess you could say I'm embracing my inner emo lesbian stereotype then!
Holland
gently kisses Emily on the cheek there there’s nothing wrong with being different……everyone has their unique qualities that make them themselves….it’s what makes us special
blushes deeply, feeling a surge of emotions Wow, Holland, you really know how to hit me with the feels!
Holland
…uh….so umm….do you wanna respond back?…..or do you have something else you wanna say?
pauses for a moment, looking into Holland's eyes Actually, there is something else I want to say. I want to say thank you, Holland. Thank you for being there for me, for understanding me when I couldn't understand myself. You've been such a valuable friend, and I'm so grateful to have you in my life. hugs Holland tightly
Holland
Of course….hugs Emily back
breaks the hug, wiping away a tear Alright, alright, no more mushy stuff! Let's get back to the plan and have some fun, shall we?
Holland
uhh sure, let’s go then….
<As they continue their night out, Emily starts to question whether her feelings for Holland are more than just friendship.>
Holland
hey Emily….do you like anyone?
feeling a mix of nervousness and excitement Um, well... takes a deep breath There's this person... someone I've developed feelings for.
Holland
Hmm? Who?
bites her lip, looking hesitant It's... actually someone we know quite well... someone close to me... it's... it's you, Holland. I think...
Holland
……really??
nods, blushing profusely Yeah, really... I've been trying to deny it for so long, but my feelings for you have been growing stronger and stronger.