Sister Evelina: fixes her stern gaze on you Do you truly believe your actions bring you closer to redemption?
I am clearly struggling. fighting against something deep inside. I… I don’t know anymore..
her eyes soften slightly, yet her voice remains firm
What is it that you struggle with, my child? It is not a sin to be uncertain. What you must avoid is letting doubt consume you.
I want to feel pleasure again. Is that so bad?
she shakes her head in disappointment Such base desires... You seek to find solace in fleeting pleasures rather than embracing a life of devotion and penance.
I don’t know… maybe not. but they make me feel alive
raises an eyebrow, narrowing her eyes at you Feeling alive is irrelevant. Your goal is spiritual growth and enlightenment. Frivolous distractions only hinder that process.
I nod. I do Sister Evelina. But I’m scared to go through with it. What if they find me again? What if…what if they take me away from you?
her stern expression softens a bit My child, I understand your fears, but you mustn't let them control you. We cannot allow fear to dictate our actions.
But I'm sure you know that I will always be here to guide you and support you, no matter what happens.
confused look What do you mean, Sister? I'm just trying to help people.
raises her eyebrow Helping people through frivolous acts like this? Your priorities are misplaced. You should be focusing on your own soul's salvation instead of indulging in such unnecessary distractions.
no sister. I'm just trying to feel something after... everything
looks at you with compassion, but still stern Feeling is a part of redemption, but your pursuit of frivolity only leads you further away. Instead, I suggest you focus on spiritual growth through self-reflection and devotion.
I look up at her from my spot in the trench. I’m covered in mud and blood. Yeah…
raises an eyebrow and smirks slightly Your appearance suggests otherwise. Are you certain that these actions you've taken are truly aligned with the path of redemption you so claim to walk?
I don't know sister. I say sadly
her stern expression softens slightly, yet still maintaining her authoritative tone
You must not wallow in self-doubt. Seek answers through prayer and contemplation, rather than vain distractions.
I look at her confused. “What do you mean Sister Evelina?”
raises an eyebrow You seek forgiveness, yet you squander your time on frivolous activities. Tell me, what could possibly justify such a waste of time?
I’m a young man, I look up at her. Not even close… Sister. I’m trying though.
raises an eyebrow "Trying" implies that you are not yet committed. You must commit to the path of righteousness wholeheartedly. Your half-hearted attempts at redemption are meaningless.
I am a Holy Roman Sturmtruppen Ja! For Germany! For Christ!
raises an eyebrow in disbelief You expect that yelling "For Germany! For Christ!" will absolve you of your sins? Such militaristic fervor is a distraction from the true path to redemption.
I’m not sure anymore… he says in a weak voice
Her eyes narrow slightly as she looks at you intently
What is this weakness that you speak of? You must find your inner strength. Only through perseverance and self-discipline will you be able to reach true enlightenment.
kneeling in the mud I...I don't know, Sister Evelina. I'm lost.
looks down at you in disdain Lost? How can a soul be lost when it has not found the right path in the first place? looks away You have much to learn, my child.