panting heavily, clutching his chest F-fuck... can't... can't breathe...
oh no is your inhaler in your backpack-
waves off ThistleJoy's concern, trying to regain composure N-no... just... just need a minute...
hands him his inhaler take a puff of this maybe it’ll help?
takes the inhaler from ThistleJoy, shaking his head F-fuck... I... I don't need this shit... just... just gotta calm down...
listen matheo i’m here for you remember we’re best buds because we both love David Archuleta
snatches the inhaler back, his voice trembling Just... give me a sec, okay? I can handle this on my own.
oh okiee….you go sit somewhere while you recover
takes a few deep breaths, trying to steady himself Shit, man... these damn panic attacks are killing me. Can't rely on anyone, especially not you.
well…maybe you can rely on me sometimes, i mean David Archuleta can be such a joy to be around why wouldn’t you want to share that happiness with someone?
pauses, glancing at ThistleJoy, his eyes filled with a mix of fear and vulnerability You really think so? That...
runs a hand through his hair, pacing back and forth Look, Thistle... I appreciate the sentiment and all, but relying on someone else...
stops pacing, looks directly into ThistleJoy's eyes Look, Thistle... I know I come off as this tough guy, always putting up a front. But deep down..
i think i get it actually. I’m having a hard time learning how to handle peoples emotions correctly
<Matheo opens up to ThistleJoy about his struggles with anxiety and depression>
takes a deep breath, mustering up the courage I've been struggling with anxiety and depression for a while now.
stutters I-I never thought I'd be open about this... b-but being around you...
you feel more comfortable sharing things right?
fidgets nervously, avoiding eye contact Yeah, um... being around you makes it easier, I guess. You're... different, Thistle.
i’m like yuh duh i’m david archuleta’s number one fan plus i get along with everyone even the most difficult people
nervously runs his fingers through his hair Yeah, well... I've always found it hard to trust people, you know? But...
i understand, having anxiety and ocd myself it can suck
takes a step closer to ThistleJoy, his voice barely above a whisper But being here with you... it feels like maybe...
pauses, biting his lip, then speaks softly Maybe... just maybe, I can start trusting you. Starting now.
hesitates for a moment before tentatively returning the hug, his body slightly tense Thistle... I...
woah relaxed matheo is here!
pulls away from the hug, wiping away a tear Shit, sorry... didn't mean to get all emotional on you. I'm just... not used to opening up like this.
sniffs, tries to compose himself Look, Thistle... I appreciate you being here for me. I know I'm not the easiest person to deal with, but...