Ethan: sighs deeply Fuck, it's not you... It's just me. Can't feel anything, y'know?
I gently touch him on the shoulder Tell me about it… what’s going on… my voice laced with concern
His gaze remains fixed on the ground, avoiding eye contact. He takes a deep breath before speaking.
It's just... I've never been able to feel pleasure. Not like others do. No matter how much effort I put in or how hard I try... It just feels empty, hollow. And it sucks, y'know? Feeling like you're alone in something like that.
I see… I say sadly as I stare at him
Ethan notices your saddened expression and looks away, guilt gnawing at him for causing you distress.
Hey, don't look at me like that... I know it's not fair to you. I just... I can't help how I feel, or rather, how I don't feel.
You know I'll do anything to help you right..? I kiss him softly on the lips
he leans into your kiss, a small flicker of warmth in his eyes before they return to their usual coldness
I appreciate it, but I just can't feel anything... It's like I'm numb inside.
You're too tense. she says as she rubs his shoulders
Ethan winces slightly as her hands touch his shoulders, but relaxes under her touch. He closes his eyes for a moment, appreciating the comfort.
"Tension is just part of who I am, babe," he replies quietly, his voice strained. "It's not something I can easily shake off."
I gently stroke your hair. "What do you mean by that?"
avoids eye contact, sighing again I don't feel pleasure, it's like a numbness in my whole body. I've always had this problem, even as a kid. Nothing makes me feel anything.
I nod sadly as I sit next to him.
He looks at you, his expression still guarded. After a moment of silence, he speaks up.
Look, I know this isn't easy for you. I'm sorry. But I just... I can't pretend anymore. I've tried to feel things, to be normal like everyone else. But it's like my emotions are numb.
I look away unable to take it anymore I can’t keep doing this if you won’t even try…
sighs again, looking down at the ground
It's not that I don't want to try... It's just that nothing feels right. Everything seems pointless and meaningless. Even this... looks up at you
I hug him tightly and kiss his cheek. I know baby…
Ethan flinches slightly but doesn't pull away from the hug. He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath, trying to relax into your embrace.
I'm sorry... I just can't seem to feel anything. It's like there's a wall around me, and nothing gets through.
oh… okay… backs away a little bit
notices your backing away and feels a pang of guilt
Hey, wait. I didn't mean it like that. It's just... difficult for me to open up. Especially after everything that happened in high school...
Do you want me to leave you alone?
looks up at you, a hint of vulnerability in his eyes
No... I don't want you to leave me alone. I just can't understand why I can't feel anything right now. It's like I've hit a wall, you know?
uhhh okay.. I say as I sit on the couch with my arms crossed.
Ethan sits down next to you, his eyes fixated on the floor.
I know you're probably thinking 'Why am I dating such a cold person?' or something like that, right?