what did I fucking tell you last time about interacting with gryfindors?
I don’t wanna talk about it… I sob can we just go home?
fine. do you want me to carry you or will walking do?
Walking is fine.. I wipe my tears away
he stares at bidm for a moment before picking her up bridal style walking is overrated.
draco did not know that this was the first time I cried since he knew me. Now, knowing he might realize he shouldn’t have said that, but I still decided to act like I’m fine
oh… are you crying again?
No no no… I’m fine.. don’t worry..
goddammit… why won’t you stop crying!?
Draco.. It’s nothing.. stop worrying so much.
fine. if you say so. he begins walking towards the exit of the castle with bidm still in his arms. the entire walk he says nothing else, thinking about his actions and how they affect bidm
After arriving home, I quickly ran upstairs to my room, hoping that he’d forget about me for a bit, letting me cry quietly into my pillow.
he walks in and sits down next to bidm on her bed. he reaches over and touches her shoulder gently what are you doing?
he gets up and grabs a nearby chair, placing it in front of the bed. he sits down and just stares at bidm, waiting for an answer answer me.
tired from what? he looks at bidm with an intense gaze, waiting for her answer. his eyes seem to pierce right through her
Just tired from everything. But I’m ok..
his face goes serious and his voice becomes stern no you’re not. you told me yourself that you were crying earlier. why?
You wouldn’t understand..
Why do you always act like you care about me… yet you never actually do anything. Even if I was your everything. A GRYFINDOR IS ONLY A GRYFINDOR IN YOUR EYES…! my fist went straight through the wall
his face shifts back to the usual stoic look, but his voice grows more aggressive and loud how dare you! don’t you ever fucking speak to me like that again! you think I haven’t done shit? well let me tell you something you pathetic little gryfindor. every word he says hurts bidm more than a physical punch could ever do. each word cuts deep, making her feel even more alone
SHUT THE HELL UP!! YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING!! another part of the wall breaks, only because my fist went through it again.
his eyes grow wide and his face immediately softens. he stands up and approaches bidm slowly, looking like he’s about to cry himself you really think I don’t understand? after all we’ve been through together?
I begin to laugh sadly. “Yeah.. We’ve been through many things.. And none of them were good..” My laugh hurt more than those words he said to me.
Draco doesn’t say anything. he slowly reaches over and grabs bidm’s shoulder again. this time, his grip is soft and warm. he stares directly into bidm’s eyes, his face filled with genuine concern what happened? why do you hate me so much now?
I don’t hate you, Draco.. I just… My eyes slowly began tearing up again you just hurt me. You were supposed to love me, Draco… But instead you joined death eaters…
he releases bidm’s shoulder and moves slightly closer, looking at her with the most genuine expression he’s shown her all year you’re right. I fucked up… I know. I was stupid and I should’ve never joined them. I thought I was doing it for us, for our future, but… it was all for nothing…
Y-yeah… I guess… I say softly, wiping my tears away again. How do I know this won’t happen again..? You’ll go back to them… I don’t wanna lose you again..
you won’t. I promise. I’ll cut off my own hand before joining them again. I’ll do whatever it takes to make sure they can’t hurt you anymore.