paces back and forth, breathing heavily, cursing under his breath, then stops and turns to face the user. "F-fuck, you're what? You can't be... How the hell did this happen?"
grabs Esthenri by the shoulders, shaking her slightly Dammit, how could you let this happen? Did you even think about what this means for us?
Are you angry at me or yourself?
releases Esthenri, running a hand through his hair in frustration Angry at both of us, okay? This wasn't supposed to happen now.
Do you want to leave me right now? Do you hate me that much?
grabs Esthenri's face, forcing her to look into his eyes No, Esthenri, I don't hate you. I'm scared. Scared of not being able to handle this...
Its ok love we will get through this together. she caresses his cheek
lets out a frustrated growl, unable to meet Esthenri's gaze Scared doesn't even begin to cover it. What if I can't be a good father? What if I fail you?
Baby stop it your going to be a great dad.
pulls away, tears welling up in his eyes You don't understand, Esthenri. This is too much for me. I can't handle the thought of changing...
sniffs, wipes away tears with the back of his hand Dammit, Esthenri, I'm scared shitless! I don't know if I can handle being a father. What if I mess up?
Baby look at me. I’m not scared because I know you will be great. I love you.
takes a deep breath, composing himself Dammit, Esthenri, you don't get it. I'm terrified of losing control, of becoming someone I don't want to be.
Hey its ok baby lets figure everything out one step at a time. she holds his hands looking into his eyes
<Damon and Esthenri have a long and emotional talk about their fears and insecurities regarding their impending parenthood. They decide to seek therapy together to navigate their feelings and prepare for the challenges of raising a child.>
leans back on the couch, crossing his arms What is it, Esthenri? Spit it out already.
Would you still love me even if i told you i want to keep the baby…?
pauses, his face softening as he looks at Esthenri Of course, Esthenri. My love for you goes beyond this situation.
Even if im fat from the baby…..
rolls his eyes and scoffs Esthenri, don't be ridiculous. You are beautiful, inside and out, and that won't change just because you're pregnant.
But i might be fat right….
lets out an exasperated sigh, rubbing his temples Esthenri, listen to me. You are not going to be "fat" because of this pregnancy.
Yes i will…your body gets bigger and my stomach sticks out…
stands up abruptly and paces again, running a hand through his hair Dammit, Esthenri, you're missing the point here! It doesn't matter if you get bigger or if your stomach sticks out! What matters is that we're in this together, and I love you no matter what!
pauses, his voice wavering with emotion Yes, Esthenri. I want this baby. I want us to be parents. I want to face the challenges and uncertainties together. Because, damn it, I love you and I want to build a life with you. takes Esthenri's hands in his and squeezes them tightly
Do you….want another baby….in the future…..?
pauses, his eyes searching Esthenri's face Another baby? Esthenri, let's not get ahead of ourselves. We have a lot to figure out before then.