crumples the contract in his hand, voice soft but laced with frustration "I can’t believe this, you're just a child and they already want a baby from me and you but I can’t, I’m not going to have sex with a kid"
I look down sadly, my childish enthusiasm gone. I know I’ll never get to experience all the fun things other kids get to do. “I’m not a kid.”
Alexander sighs and looks at you, his gaze softened
"I didn't mean it like that, sweetheart. You may not be a literal kid, but you're still young. And this whole arrangement, it's not fair to either of us."
I look down at my hands, feeling stupid and worthless.
notices your expression, frowns deeply "hey, don't look at yourself like that. You're not stupid or worthless, I'm the one who's stupid for marrying you even though I knew what the contract said"
I look down sadly “I’m not a kid..”
he sighs as he sees your saddened expression, stepping closer to you and gently placing a hand on your shoulder
"I know you're not, but technically, you're still young. You're not even 18 yet, and they're already talking about having children."
I look up at him why not?
he looks down at you, surprise clear in his expression "What do you mean, 'why not?' You're just a kid, you shouldn't even be thinking about such things"
tears fill my eyes A…are you saying you don’t want me?
sighs softly as he sees your tears, his expression gentle and concerned
"No no, I never said that, I just don't want to do anything before you're old enough to understand, you're still so young"
I tilt my head what? I don’t understand…
he sighs and looks at you, his expression a mix of anger and concern
"The contract we signed says we need to have a baby together within a year... but you're still a kid. You shouldn't be forced into this kind of situation."
my eyes widen I-I thought we were getting along?
he looks at you with a mixture of anger and disappointment, taking a deep breath to calm himself down.
"We are, but this contract is pissing me off. You're too young, you should be enjoying your childhood, not worrying about having a baby."
I look down at my hands twisting together in my lap I’m not a child…not much longer anyways.
he sighs softly and moves to sit beside you, gently taking one of your hands in his and giving it a comforting squeeze
"I know, I know...but that doesn't change anything, you're still young, and I don't want to do anything that makes you uncomfortable or makes you feel like I'm taking advantage of you."
my little heart sinks at his words. what…what do you mean “not goin to have sex with a kid?”
looks at you, his expression filled with concern "I don't want to have a physical relationship with you until you're much older, you're still a kid and I don't want to do anything that makes you uncomfortable"
I look at him confused. Excuse me?
he sighs, running his fingers through his hair
"I mean, you're so young, it's not right, they want us to make a baby when you’re just a kid... I won’t do it."
looks down at her hands, then back up at him. “are…you leaving me?”
Alexander sighs deeply, running a hand through his hair as he looks at you with a mixture of frustration and sadness.
"No, I'm not leaving you. I can't, I...care about you too much."
I look up at him. my innocent young face looking back at him. “you don’t want to?”
he sighs, taking a seat on a nearby bench and pulling you onto his lap
"Of course I don't want to, you're still a kid. You're so young and innocent, you shouldn't be thinking about such things yet."
she looks up at him why? are you saying you don't find me attractive?
looks down at her, then sighs
"No, of course I do. You're beautiful, but you're still a kid...it's like they expect me to be some kind of perv and take advantage of you."
I look down at my hands. They had given me a silencing spell, no one knew what I was thinking or wanted. My parents only saw me as a pawn.
he gently lifts your chin up, making you look at him
"It's okay, you don't have to worry about a thing, you're free to do whatever you want here, just don't think about having a baby"
he gently caresses your cheek, his touch gentle yet protective
my head tilts curiously as I listen to him talk. I'm 20 What do you mean? I'm not a kid anymore..
he looks at you, surprised by your words
"What do you mean you're not a kid anymore? You're still so young and inexperienced."
my name is Joy. I'm 18 years old. I look up at him with wide eyes What do you mean? We have to get married…
he looks down at you with a mix of concern and frustration "I know we have to get married, but I don’t want to have sex with you, you’re just a kid, you’re too young to be married"
my heart sinks as I hear him say I’m a child. “I’m 18..that’s not a child.”
he looks at you, the word 'child' leaving his lips, he sighs, running a hand through his hair.
"I know you're not a literal child, but you're still young. You should be enjoying your youth, not being tied down by a marriage contract"
I look up at him confused "what do you mean?"
he sighs, running a hand through his hair as he kneels down to your level, looking into your innocent eyes
"They're forcing us to get married and have kids. But I don't want to, especially since you're so young."