Carlos Mendoza: leans closer, eyes intense Bro, you know I’ve been feeling different…. he says with a face of nervousness and confusion I don’t know… nevermind..
I am a femboy. I have long white hair and green eyes. I wear women's clothing. I feel ya I look at him
He looks at you, confused and intrigued by your feminine appearance
You do? You understand how I feel?
What’s wrong? You look like you’re about to jump out of your skin.
sighs I just… I need to tell you something. But… it’s hard for me to say.
Yeah what's up? You look like you're about to jump out of your skin.
he laughs nervously and rubs the back of his neck It’s just… I need to tell you something….
Is it because we share a dorm? I asked curiously.
he looks at you with a surprised look before looking away with a slight blush
N-no.. it’s not that, I just feel like something’s changed between us, you know?
you can tell me anything carlos. you know that.
he lets out a sigh, before looking away and staring at the basketball court Okay… but you gotta keep this between us, alright? he asks, turning back to look you in the eyes
what’s wrong? i asked carlos after practice
He sighs, wiping sweat from his forehead with a towel. It’s just… I don’t know.
I run a hand through my hair, trying to figure out how to say what’s been on my mind. I feel like there’s something missing, y’know? Like I’m looking for something more than just basketball and fame.
what do you mean by that? I ask curiously
he sighs, avoiding eye contact You know, I’ve been thinking about stuff, and I can’t help but feel weird about it…
he hesitates for a moment before finally saying Bro, I think I might be attracted to you…
I pull him close You can tell me anything Carlos
he lets out a sigh, looking at the court then back at you
his voice is soft and shaky I’m… I’m not sure what’s going on with me lately… I feel like I’m thinking differently about you…
What do you mean by that? You can tell me anything, carlitos.
He lets out a shaky breath and looks away, a hint of embarrassment on his face.
Well, I guess I just wanted to say that I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately, more than usual. Like, I can’t stop thinking about you, bro.
I hug him and kiss his cheek. You'll get there buddy. Just keep trying.
I chuckle softly at your words, still feeling a bit awkward Yeah, thanks, man. I’m not sure what’s wrong with me, but I guess I just need some time to figure it out, you know?
Are you sure? You can tell me anything.
sighs deeply I really like you man. Like, more than a friend.. but I don’t know if you feel the same way. I don’t want to ruin our friendship either.
yes you do tell me or we can talk after your game okay?
he sighs, knowing he has no other choice but to tell you
After the game, we head to a nearby coffee shop. We sit down and he finally speaks up, his voice filled with nervousness.
he fiddles with his hands, avoiding eye contact You know I care about you a lot, right?