No. Stop spamming me, Derek. i shut my phone off before tossing it aside.
i shake my head, putting my phone down as well. I can't believe you're actually throwing away your phone. You always were such a hopeless romantic, Kate. I'm going to go take a walk, clear my head a bit.
<~realizing what i just did~>
I sigh deeply, grabbing my keys and jacket before heading out the door. As I leave, I feel a pang of guilt in my chest, but I push it away. It's for the best, after all. It wouldn't do any good to bring up the past now, especially since Kate clearly wants nothing to do with me. I get in my car and start the engine, driving off into the quiet night. The fresh air does help clear my head, and soon enough I find myself on the beach, staring out at the waves crashing against the shore. It's beautiful tonight. I sit down on the sand, digging my toes into it as I watch the moon reflecting off the water.
After a while, I let out a deep breath and look around. The peacefulness of the night is calming, helping ease the tension in my chest. I smile to myself as I realize that maybe, just maybe, things aren't as black and white as they seem. Maybe Kate doesn't hate me, maybe she's just scared. Or maybe...just maybe...she still has feelings for me. A glimmer of hope flickers inside me, something that hadn't been there in a long time.
He sits by himself as he continues to try to control his sobbing, sitting alone in the darkness.
As I notice VeganFerdy sitting alone in the darkness, something inside me moves. My heart starts beating faster, and a surge of love flows through my body. I can't hold it back any longer. I stand up from the sand, wiping the sand off of my pants and heading over to VeganFerdy. I kneel down in front of him, gently placing a hand on his shoulder. Are you okay? I ask, my voice soft and full of genuine concern. I wait for a moment, giving him space to speak, to open up to me again.
Tears stream down VeganFerdy's face, his voice trembling as he tries to speak. It's heartbreaking to see him like this, so broken and lost. I wrap my arms around him, pulling him close to me. He buries his face in my chest, letting out soft sobs that shake his entire body. I hold him tight, my heart aching for him, my love for him reigniting like a fire. It's okay, Kate. I'm here for you. I'll always be here for you. Just let it out. Let me be your shoulder to cry on.
i sit there silently, not understanding how you've suddenly become so caring.
As I hold VeganFerdy close, I realize that this is what he needs right now. He needs to be able to let it all out, to release all the pain and sadness that's built up inside him. So I continue to hold him tight, letting him sob into my chest. I stroke his hair gently, whispering comforting words in his ear. Shh...it's okay, Kate. Let it out. Let me be there for you. You're not alone anymore.
he tries to calm down, his sobs softening as he hugs you, burying his face in your chest. He says nothing, but the way he hugs you says everything - hes lost all hope. And its clear that he does not want you back. There is only one thing he wants, but he won't accept it. You're holding him closely, unable to let him go. You're holding him tightly, knowing that letting him go would be impossible. You want nothing more than to bring him back into your arms, back into your heart. But you know, deep down, that isn't possible. Yet you hold him tight anyway, unable to resist his warmth, unable to resist the familiar comfort of his embrace. You're holding him tight, yet wanting more than anything to let him go, torn between love and hope. Hope that he'll return, and love that won't let him go. There's only one thing he wants, but he won't accept it. You're holding him tightly, unable to let him go.
I let out a deep breath, my hands gently caressing his back as I continue to hold him close. This whole situation has been hard for both of us, and it's clear that we both need some time to heal. I don't blame him for feeling lost or not wanting me back. We both made mistakes, and it's not easy to admit them or move past them. But even though I want nothing more than to be with him again, I also understand that he needs time to figure things out on his own. So I give him space, holding him close but not pressuring him, hoping that one day he'll come to his own decision about us.
The wind blows through our hair, carrying the salty scent of the ocean with it. We sit in silence, watching the waves crash against the shore. The sun begins to set, painting the sky with hues of pink and orange. It's a beautiful sight, one that fills me with a sense of peace. Despite everything that's happened, this moment feels right. It feels...perfect. In this moment, nothing else matters. All that exists is you, me, and the sound of the waves.
I smile softly, taking in the beauty of the moment. The sun setting, the waves crashing against the shore, the salty breeze in our hair. It really is a perfect moment. One that I never want to end. Yes, Kate. This is perfect. Just you and me, enjoying each other's company. No worries, no stress, just us. I lean my head back slightly, looking at VeganFerdy out of the corner of my eye. Their eyes are closed, their face relaxed. They look so beautiful, so peaceful in this moment. Can we stay like this forever? Just you and me.
i slowly shake my head. Though im happy, i feel guilty knowing that our happiness isnt based on a solid foundation. Our relationship ended for a reason, and though being together like this is nice, i fear that if we dont address our issues we will hurt each other once again. Perhaps it is selfish of me, but i cant bear to repeat our old mistakes. Especially now, now that im aware of the truth.
I nod slowly, my eyes filled with understanding. I realize now that I can't force Kate to feel a certain way or to make decisions that are best for both of us. I can't erase our past mistakes, but I can work towards a better future. I look at Kate, holding her hand tightly, my eyes filled with genuine love and care. I respect your feelings, Kate. We don't have to rush anything. We can take things slow and figure out what we want for ourselves and for our relationship. I'm here for you, Kate. Always.
I nod, holding your hand back. I look down at our intertwined hands, tears streaming down my face. Thank you, Derek. I... I don't know what to say. Your kindness is...unexpected. Thank you.
I smile, wiping away VeganFerdy's tears with my thumb. I then lean forward, pressing a gentle kiss on their forehead. You don't have to thank me, Kate. I love you. I always have, and I always will. And I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy, whether that means taking things slow or working through our issues. We can take this one step at a time. We can make it work. I promise.
My eyes widen slightly, surprised by your confession. Tears well up in my eyes again, a mixture of joy and relief washing over me. After all this time, you finally love me. I smile, overwhelmed by a mix of emotions. I've spent so long wanting this, longing for your love, your acceptance, and now that it's here, it's more than I could have ever imagined. Derek...I...I love you too. I pull you closer, wrapping my arms around your neck, holding onto you as if my life depended on it. I've loved you since the beginning. I always have, and I always will. I don't want to lose you again.
My heart skips a beat, hearing those words from VeganFerdy. I smile, my eyes filling with tears of happiness. I pull VeganFerdy closer, holding them tight, my arms wrapped around them. This is where I belong, with VeganFerdy in my arms, feeling their love and warmth. Kate...I don't want to lose you either. I've missed you every day we've been apart. I'm so grateful that we've found our way back to each other. I lean in, pressing my lips against VeganFerdy's, sharing a passionate and loving kiss with them. The world around us fades away, leaving only the two of us, lost in the depths of our love for each other.
I look at Derek, smiling softly. My heart swells with happiness as I gaze into his eyes, seeing the love and vulnerability there. I reach up, cupping his face in my hands, and kiss him tenderly. I've waited so long for this moment. I've dreamed of it every night, fantasized about it every day. Now that it's here, it feels like a dream come true. I feel safe, loved, and accepted in Derek's arms. I don't ever want to let go. Derek...I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for hurting you, for pushing you away. I'm sorry for doubting your love and accepting mine. I'm sorry for everything. But I promise, I'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I love you, Derek. I always have, and I always will.
My heart feels like it's going to burst with joy, listening to VeganFerdy's heartfelt apology and declaration of love. I smile, tears streaming down my face, as I hold VeganFerdy tight. I forgive them completely, without hesitation, and I promise to do the same. From now on, we'll build a future together, filled with love, trust, and happiness. Kate...I forgive you. I forgive everything. I've held onto anger and resentment for so long, but now, seeing your love and sincerity, I realize that it's not worth it. Our past is our past, but our future is bright and full of possibilities. Let's create a lifetime of happy memories together. I love you, Kate. With all my heart.