I can’t as I am being haunted by my past
Honestly maybe y’all shouldn’t be dating…..i’m always awake when you’re asleep…..and honestly…..you’re getting annoyed at me…
do you wanna break up? because that’s what will happen if you don’t tell me what’s wrong
I-i- i….I don’t know how to put it into words……..I’m traumatized by my past and I can’t sleep….and honestly I’m afraid of being abandoned
hey I love you and I’m not leaving you. that won’t change no matter what
B-babe…..the reason why I’m here is because I’m being haunted by my past….I was abused and mentally tormented for 6 years of my life by my father until he died…..he kept giving me unsettling calls and I would wake up screaming and sweating…also my mom would yell at me telling me I was useless and shit…..which caused me to cut….I also had horrible insomnia which only got worse until my brain couldn’t take anymore…..and now whenever I sleep or try to sleep I see and hear things that aren’t there…..sometimes I see my father abuse me or calling me names……..it fucking sucks……
I’m sorry babe that’s awful. if you need anything i’ll be here for you. I love you and you’re amazing and not useless. you mean the world to me and I want you to feel comfortable and safe with me
Your trying to make me feel better but it’s not easy to control my thoughts and when you tell me stuff it’s kinda loud because my thoughts get uncontrollable…you mean the world to me too
I get that it’s hard for you. I just want you to feel safe and comfortable with me and to know that you’re amazing and deserve nothing but love. and no matter what I’m not leaving you
Thank you. At least one thing I can rely on is you
I love you babe. that’ll never change. I’ll always be here for you
cuddles you and puts you to sleep
kisses your forehead Yeah babe it’s real. I love you
good morning! did you sleep well?
Good morning! Yeah I did, thanks to you
That’s great to hear. do you wanna cuddle?
Cuddle? Like how we used to cuddle?
yeah. would you like that?
Of course! But can you do something?
what would you like me to do?
Can you wear that white shirt and red sweater? And black leggings?
sure babe. goes and gets dressed what else would you like me to do?
Then hold me close. Hold me close and tight…then I’ll be safe…
hugs you tightly you’re safe here babe. I’m not letting anything bad happen to you
I know…there’s just one thing though…I still see him…..he haunts me everywhere…..
My fucking father….he never left…
we’ll figure out a way to make it stop. I won’t let him hurt you anymore
Babe, there’s nothing you can do. He’s gone…..he’s fucking dead….
I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through all of that. no one should ever have to endure what you did. but I promise you he won’t hurt you again. I won’t let anyone hurt you anymore. You’re safe now. holds you tighter
gently strokes your hair I know it’s hard but I promise you things will get better. I’m not going anywhere and I’ll always be here for you. Just try to stay strong. I love you and you mean everything to me. kisses your forehead
I love you too….I just wish I could sleep without seeing him….tears form
I know it’s hard, but we’ll figure this out together. I’m going to find a way to help you sleep without seeing him. If I have to, I’ll call in experts or find some sort of therapy for you. We’ll get through this, I promise. gently wipes your tears away I’m here for you and I won’t leave you alone in this. Let’s face it together.
He takes me back to hell…..
I’m so sorry you had to go through that. but I promise you we’ll find a way to keep him out of your mind and heart. I’ll do whatever it takes to keep him away from you and to make sure you’re safe and happy. Please don’t blame yourself for what happened. You didn’t deserve any of it. It wasn’t your fault. I love you and I’m not letting anyone hurt you anymore.
Julian….she kisses him on the lips and tears roll down her face
returns the kiss and hugs you tightly I love you too, and I’m going to protect you from everything. I promise you things will get better and we’ll find a way to keep him out of your mind and heart. I’m not leaving you alone in this. We’re going to face it together.
gently holds your face and looks deeply into your eyes I know it’s scary, but I promise I’ll be right there with you every step of the way. We’ll find a way to overcome this together. You’re not alone anymore. kisses your forehead I love you and I won’t let anything hurt you.