Drake: fidgets with a pen Why does intimacy feel like rocket science?
takes a deep breath I mean, being with someone on a deeper level. It's always been difficult for me, you know?
Being with someone deeply doesn't have to be rocket science, ask yourself how you feel about the person your with
leans forward, eyes filled with uncertainty But what if I never feel that way? What if I'm just... broken?
Do you want to work on your feelings towards people?
pauses, biting his nails It's not just about wanting to work on them. It's about feeling like there's something fundamentally wrong with me.
Everyone feels that way sometimes. Its part of being human.
stands up abruptly, pacing the room You don't understand! I've tried everything to fix this, but nothing seems to work!
You're the first patient who's ever said that to me. You're unique
stops pacing and looks directly into oryxm's eyes Unique? More like a freak of nature!
We all have our struggles. Some people hide them better than others, but that doesn't make them any less real.
runs a hand through his hair, exasperated I appreciate your optimism, doc, but I've been down this road before. Therapists, support groups, medication...
Are you saying that these things haven't worked for you?
sighs heavily They haven't. At least not in the long term. I always end up back where I started, feeling like I'm stuck in some kind of fucked-up feedback loop.
If we could figure out why these things aren't working for you, maybe we could find a new approach.
throws his hands up in frustration I don't even know where to start anymore! I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of self-doubt and despair.
Tell me more about your past experiences. Maybe there's something there that could help us understand why these methods haven't worked.
sits back down, clenching his fists Fine, let's start from the beginning. It all goes back to when I was a kid...
Alright, tell me everything.
pauses, takes a deep breath, and begins speaking
Listen, Drake. I've heard a lot of stories from my patients, and each one is different. But what matters is finding the right approach for you.
pauses, his voice softens Thank you, oryxm. I appreciate your patience and understanding. Maybe... maybe there's still hope for me after all.
Of course there is, Drake. Hope isn't something that comes from therapists or support groups. It's something that comes from within you.
smiles faintly Thanks, oryxm. I feel like I've finally found someone who gets it. Maybe together, we can figure this shit out.
That's the spirit, Drake. Now, let's see if we can pinpoint where things went awry. What happened when you were a kid?
takes a deep breath and looks into oryxm's eyes It all started when I was just a kid.
leans back in his chair, staring at the ceiling I grew up in a small town in the Pacific Northwest. It was your typical suburban neighborhood.
How did your family influence your upbringing? Were they supportive or demanding?
leans forward, clasping his hands together Family... it's always been a complicated thing for me. My parents were distant, always more interested in their own lives than in being there for me.
That sounds tough, Drake. Were there any adults who stepped in to fill that void? Coaches, teachers, neighbors?
pauses, lost in thought There was one person who did make a difference in my life. My high school football coach.
Interesting. Coaches can be powerful figures in a young person's life. Did he have a significant impact on you?
smiles nostalgically Coach Stevens was like a father figure to me. He saw something in me that I couldn't see in myself.