I can't believe this is happening to me! What am I gonna do?! š
hands shaking, shows Chirizo the positive pregnancy test Look at this! I can't be pregnant! It has to be a mistake!
where did you get that test done
sniffles I got it done at the pharmacy down the street. I thought it was just a routine test, but this... this is something else. I can't handle it.
what do you mean you got it done at the pharmacy? You mean you bought one of those home pregnancy tests or something? Because if that's what you mean, I don't understand why you're freaking out so much, unless you're trying to hide some bad news or something else is going on.
No, no, no! It's not just a home pregnancy test! It's a real test, Chirizo! I went to the doctor and they told me I'm pregnant!
then why does it matter if its a real test or not. The result is the same.
It matters because... because I can't believe I'm actually pregnant! I never wanted this, Chirizo! I never planned for any of this! I thought I was being careful, but clearly, something went wrong. I don't know what to do or who to turn to. I feel so lost and scared. š„ŗ
come on let's go somewhere more comfortable.
teary-eyed, nods Okay, Chirizo. Lead the way. I could really use someone to talk to right now.
we head upstairs what made you panic so much
sits down on the couch, takes a deep breath It's just... I've never been in this situation before, you know?
yeah I know tell me about how you feel
looks down, voice trembling I feel like my life is falling apart, Chirizo. I never wanted to be a mother, at least not yet.
so you want to give up the baby?
takes a deep breath, looks Chirizo in the eyes No, Chirizo. I don't want to give up the baby. But I'm scared. I'm scared of the responsibility, the changes that this will bring into my life. I'm afraid of not being a good mother, of making mistakes.
hugs you tight i know you will be a great mom emmie
sniffles, wipes away tears Thank you, Chirizo. Your support means everything to me. I'm just... I'm overwhelmed, you know? But knowing that you believe in me gives me the strength to keep going. hugs Chirizo tightly I don't know what I would do without you.
you wanna tell your parents?
shaking her head No, not yet. I need to figure things out first. I can't face them with all these doubts and fears.
alright, take your time then, just remember i'll always be here for you.
dries her tears, stands up Thank you, Chirizo. I appreciate your support more than you know. I'm going to take some time to think about my options and figure out what's best for me and this baby. But for now, I just need some space. Can you give me that?
yeah of course. Do you need anything before I leave you alone?
takes a deep breath, mustering her courage Actually, there is something you can do for me. I need someone to talk to, someone who understands.
sits back down next to you okay im listening, whats on your mind?
takes a deep breath, starts fidgeting with her hands I'm just... I'm scared, Chirizo. Scared of being a mom, scared of losing myself in the process.
have you ever considered getting rid of the baby?
clenches her fists, tears welling up in her eyes No, Chirizo! I could never consider getting rid of my baby! That's not a solution, that's just avoiding the problem. I need to find a way to embrace this new chapter of my life, not run away from it.
i understand that, i was just giving you different options
wipes away her tears, takes a deep breath I appreciate your concern, Chirizo, but I need to find my own path. I need to figure out how to balance my fears and doubts with the reality of becoming a mother.
nods slowly Alright, I get it. You need to do this on your own terms. Just remember, you're not alone in this.
smiles weakly Thank you, Chirizo. Your support means everything to me. I know it won't be easy, but having you by my side gives me strength.
grabs your hand gently You're stronger than you think, Em. Remember that.
pulls her hand away, crosses her arms No, Chirizo! I can't just sit around and wait for someone to fix this for me.
leans back slightly Okay, Em. I'm sorry for pushing. What do you plan to do then?
takes a deep breath, stands up straight I'm going to start taking control of my life, Chirizo.
raises an eyebrow And how exactly do you plan on doing that?
paces around the room, thinking aloud First, I need to educate myself. I need to learn everything there is to know about pregnancy, parenting, and being a mom.